Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in Cassidy's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, August 29th, 2001
4:24 pm	im bored. i needa good fucking i reckon, but not from me or a chick. A good hard fuck from a guy. To release all the tension in one of the wall fucks, you know when both lean on the wall and u wrap ur legs round his waist, sumthin ud do in public against a brick wall. Julie stayed the night, not last night but the nite b4. We had a nudist night, where you do everything totally naked. I had to put a heater on coz it was cold. We watched tv and played cards hehe it was kinda cheesy but actually lotsa fun. Then we got into bed early and fingered each other, everything we do together is soft and relaxing with her. Love it Today at school I had to spend all lunch time in the office and i wrote a raunchy story ;) Mrs Meldon sent me up there for telling her to shuddup, grrr shes a pain in the ass. Anyway my story was about this guy and this new girl who arrived at school. And this girl walked into the class on her first day and then the guy got up and they had a fuck right in front of the class. So they were sent to the deputy principal and they started fucking in front of him so they got sent to the headmaster and they started to fuck in front of him. But he liked it and let them off scot free as long as they would put on a show every friday for him. Of course my story was heaps longer and very detailed but i just cant be bothered. Maybe one day Ill type it up for all u's ud like that wouldnt u (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 23rd, 2001
6:49 pm	another thing Age: I am 16 people i have slept with: that?s a really dumb question coz I don?t keep count age when i lost my virginity: 9 ? I was way too young I tell you times i have been in love: twice times i have had my heart broken: four L hearts i have broken: maybe 10 ?maybe?? i have been single : none age when i first flew all alone: I was 8, went to see granddad in newzealand numbers of boys i have kissed in my life: another dumb question number of girls i have kissed: ditto to above number of grades i got at school that were less than A: lets say ??s number of things that would technically be classed as suicide attempts but actually weren't: 5 not classed as suicide and 3 classed as suicide types of drugs taken illegally: mainly I only smoke weed drugs i am addicted to right now: cigarettes and maybe weed and alcohol hehe nah not fully addicted to the last 2 number of people i would classify as true, i could trust with my life type friends: 4 number of people from my hall at university that i have snogged: me at university ? that?s a joke! number of piercing: 2 in each ear, belly button, right nipple, tongue so that?s 7 (I can add!) number of tattoos : 1 but its tiny coz im a wimp with pain number of times my name has appeared on film credits: haha fuck off age when first paid for writing: I don?t write number of scars on my body: heaps on my wrists from when I was 12 and suffered from depression and shit like that, I got a cool one on my knee from when I was like 5 that?s in a star shape, its so cool. number of times i have feared for my safety whilst walking around London at night: never been to London one day hopefully though number of times a boyfriend has made me scared of what he could do to me physically: never had a violent boyfriend number of things in my past that i regret, and still haunt my nightmares: umm the obvious cutting myself having sex at such a young age, I was 9!!! That?s way too young I reckon but other than those no regrets 1. What are your initials? C.A.L (my nickname) 2. How old are you? 16 3. Do you believe in god? no 4. (This question is only to be answered if you said "yes" to number 3) Are you brainwashed? 5. Are you a scientologist? no 6. What color are your eyes? blue 7. Do you shave your "no-no spot?" yes 8. Oh, are you a male or a female? female 9. Did you know that this is the first survey I've ever made? no 10. I hate surveys but I still fill them out sometimes. Why do you fill them out? Umm no idea, just so then others can know more about me 11. Did you know that I'm hard right now? Really??? 12. What genre of music do you listen to? A bit of everything but I refuse to listen to anything bopperish like boy bands, britney, Jessica simpson and all those freaks 13. What's your sign? i actually dont know (does this make me a freak?? hah) 14. Is your family religious? No way 15. (This question is only to be answered if you said "yes" to number 14) Is your family brainwashed? 16. Do you drink? Of course, who doesnt 17. (This question is only to be answered if you said "no" to number 16) Why not? 18. (This question is only to be answered if you said "yes" to number 16) Right on man, but why do you drink? Like the taste, loosens you up 19. What is your sexual preference? I am a very sexual person and I?ll do it with guys or girls. I don?t really have a favourite I just love sex in general so much!!!! I will try everything no worries there! Current Mood: accomplished (1 Comment |Comment on this)
6:36 pm	a thing i just did 7 things you are afraid of: 1. sharks 2. swimming in the sea 3. being raped by an ugly old man 4. burning to death 5. death in general at the moment (it wont last though) 6. getting a deadly and uncaurable disease 7. my step dad 7 things that make you laugh: 1. jerry springer ? wot a joke 2. miss universe competitions hah 3. my friends 4. bonsai tv programme (place your bets now!!!! Haha its so funny) 5. britney spears, Jessica simpson and all bopper boy bands ? wot dicks 6. My granddad, he?s a laugh and a half he is 7. tickles 7 things that make you cry: 1. my step dad 2. my past 3. when I throw up my food ? im trying to stop but its hard 4. when my nails break 5. when I fight with my close friends 6. when I think about Carly L 7. when i look at my scars 9 things I love: 1. sex 2. lesbian sex 3. cigarettes 4. weed 5. my mum and real dad 6. parting 7. passionfruit juice yumyum 8. my friends 9. Adam 7 things I don't understand: 1. my step dad 2. why people believe in god 3. why I used to cut myself 4. rainbows ? sorry mr Neilson ill never understand them so u can stop explaining 5. why the world has to have std?s or any diseases at that 6. how people don?t shower in the morning ? whats up with that??? 7. girls who would want to seel their body??????!!!! 7 things on my desk: 1. pack of ciggies 2. an iceblock stick 3. broken pen that writes with ink blots dam thing 4. my address book 5. cellphone 6. photos - good ones too! ;) 7. cityhigh cd Right now you are: giggly 7 facts about you: 1. I am 16/f/australia 2. I used to cut myself and beat myself up when I was about 12 3. I absolutely hate my step dad coz he yells and really scary 4. I love sex so much I cant describe it! 5. I got no hair down ?there? at da moment hehe J 6. im bisexual 7. my internet line is flat rate ? if you were wondering haha 7 things to do before I die: 1. make a porn video 2. take part in group sex of 10 people 3. live out my dream I had a few dayz ago mmmmmmm J 4. marry someone who loves me for me 5. design an item of clothing - that would be cool! 6. give up smoking, dam habit 7. learn to sing Current Mood: mellow (1 Comment |Comment on this)
5:53 pm	God dam my mum is always on my back about fucking school "have you done your homework? what are you doing at school? i think you should read more! these exams are important dont fail! I really think you should start studying now" god dam its juts like back off and let me have fun as a teenager . I mean I'm gona eventually end up boring and annoyin like u but im gona make it the least amount of time possible grrrrrrr. Anyway I had to do my after school detention today - see dam school! I was reading the newspaper in the detention room and the death pages, you know where poeple post their dead parents, grandparents, relatives, friends you get the drift. And anyway I was reading that and I saw about 12 kids under age the 16 dead it made me so sad. I'm 16 now itz scary knowing that I could die tomorow when u think about it. Y waste my precious time at school at such a young age, i can always go back when im older. Oh mi god I had a horrible dream last night, my best friend kille dherslef and slit her wrists in the bath and I found her with blood everywhere and then Richard came round to comfort me, it was so horrible and so graphic. When I saw her today I gave her a big hug and told her I loved her. But before I had that dream I masturbated in bed pretending adam was there touching me and fell alseep naked hehe. I hardly ever go to bed nude, I quite like it. But I woke up sweating at about 2am coz of the dream and also I left my electric blanket on high. Ok there is a really really dumb song on the radio and i got no idea wot the shit is grrr. I hate it when they play bullshit songs for no reason outa the blue. I'm feeling all giggly tonight itz weird. Current Mood: giggly (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 21st, 2001
6:31 pm	Excellent its pay day or should i say pay night.. not till midnight tonight. Man I'm so tired AND I THINK THIS GAY thing just went on caps oh well too tired to change any mistakes i make tonight sorry if ya dont understand it. Im usually a good typer even tho i dont take typing at school. Only one more year of highschool thenm im free for a while. I wanna be a nurse, aint that ncie a? I'm all by myself tonight, my mum has gone out and no one is cummin over well i havent organised anything yet unless sumone shows up as a surpirse that would be cool. My sister is... arhh i dunno actually. I think she went on a road trip or sumthing, haven't seen her in bout 2 weeks, im sure she's having fun wherever she is. She's cool like that. Matt asked me to go surfing with him, adam, josh and lilly. I'm go, its next weekend I think. They're really sexy and I wanna hook up with one of them. I nearly got snapped at school today for smoking, dam teachers they patrol the toilets now...losers i think they need tog et a life coz we're gona find another way if they take our H block toilets away ha. But anyway me and Saskia had to sprint across the field to escape Mr. Poll hah that was a laugh.I just did a sexy test and guess whose sexy...ah yes dats right me! yeh anyway umm i mite watch a home video tonight hehe naughty me, i took it with out blake knowing ;) Well I am tired and I have to make sum dinner for me self. write tomorrow Current Mood: tired (1 Comment |Comment on this)
1:32 am	I just had the best hour of my life. I'm babysitting at some friend of my mum's house and the kids had gone to bed so I went into the parents room and masturbated so hard. They had a cucumber in their fridge so I cut the end off coz you know how sum are thinner and nicely shaped just like a dick. Yeh well I used that and my fingers and I had a really good go at it. The easiest way to make myself cum is just to rub my clit, do that for a lil bit and it makes me cum real easy. Sumtimes I only use my fingers inside me and thats good too. I get so excited so easily.I spose thats good and bad ay. Hey I was just looking through all my photos and I've got sum really good porn! Cool! I so wish I could put them on the net :( Now I'm sad. I want to share all my excellent memories. I got photos I took of myself, of other couples fucking, me fucking girls, me fucking guys, me and my toys, whippings, bondage, sum real weird but very erotic positions ohhh im wet just flippin through. I cant describe how much I love sex... Current Mood: flirty (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 20th, 2001
11:14 pm	I just had a session with Julia and Scott, it was good shit too. So we got high and had a threesum I think, either that or Scott just watched me and Julia whatever it was good. I'm tired and I have a headache. I had detention after school today then went to work. Arrrrrrggggggg write later Current Mood: high (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 19th, 2001
11:45 pm	mmmmmmmm Sally came over and i was busy talking to sumone on the net so she got under the computer desk and licked me out. She's the best lesbian sex partner I have I reckon. So i quit off the net and we upstairs to my room. She lay on the bed and i blind folded her and ties her nads and feet to my new four post bed. I love my dad for buying me that :) I undressed her and licked her nipples and kissed all over her breast and armpits (I'm wierd like that??) I spread her legs and licked all the inside of her thighs then dived my tongue into her with out any notice..I love watching her reactions when I do that hehe. So I made her cum with my tongue then made her cum with my finger and then with a dildo. Then I humped her. I love just humping, the fact that the two bodies are naked against each other hitting with force watching tits shake and facials is such a turn on for me...but with only with girls I'd rather just fuck the guys. Then she blindfolded me and did pretty much the same. Then we took a shower together. We took a dildo in there and took turns at sticking it in each other. Just one push in then out then into the other person just one jerk then out and into me again, its really fun and eventually it makes u cum. And nows she's gone home again :( I'm sad now but actually happy coz we had fun so thats the main thing. I don't know my sexuality yet. At the moment I'm bisexual coz I love to fuck girls and love to fuck guys. Does it mean anything that I put girls first???? Anyway... I'm tired now, I'll go and dream bout my fantasy again yum yum Current Mood: naughty (3 Comments |Comment on this)
8:12 pm	First entry Oh mi god I love sex! I had this great dream last night and I woke up wet and even sweaty at about 2am...it was 6 guys and 6 girls all in this one room with mud everywhere and we were just fucking each other and swaping and touching and masturbating and watching everyone it was so cool, I have to fulfil that fantasy now, it will be my mission. But anyway Scott came over on last night too and we fucked. I love my relationship with Scott coz all it is sex, and i mean hell good sex. He never calls and we dont really do stuff together like an actual couple would ya know. I mean sumtimes we'll go out to parties together or we'll be at the same places but we're both too busy getting with people to even say hi sumtimes. He likes everything that I like and ya know how sum people just wont do stuff..like for example give anal or take anal or kinky shit or toys or stuff like that ahy...well he does everything. Last night he came over and we just masturbated in front of each other for like two hours and I played with my vibrator and and we watched porn together it was nice. And Sally's gona come over soon yay. I might go look at sum lesbian porn and get myself all nice and wet for her hehe. I'll tell you all bout it later on Current Mood: horny (1 Comment |Comment on this)